people make choices. make choices on the path they want in life. different people have different objectives and goals in different points in time. some may just want to live life without obligations, not having to report a thing to anyone, and can meet whoever they want to meet. some may just want to spend the whole time in the world with their partner. some may just want to be alone-which is not quite possible.
seems like people my age are in the phrase of life where their partners are very important. all getting attached and stuff. and that their partners are their priority. "when you getting married?" is a common question. quite scary. if can't meet friends, meeting boyfriend. but somehow, it's like, things were planned a week ago. not enough time to tell your boyfriend to do other stuff? okok. just my mind running. pardon me. and i think its quite remarkable that people can prioritize so well. for me, i believe in balancing. i dun believe in making my friends feel that they come in second place or like my boyfriend is my priority out front. it can be, but it'd be a more subtle way. some people love it loud, when ppl outrightly put them as priority, they feel good. who doesn't feel good when someone puts you as priority?
yesterday we were at a topic of "the one". it is hard to come by. or rather. once in a lifetime probably. i dont know how this feeling came abt for me. im glad that it gives me that vibe this time round. but i cant help but have to hold back a little as fairytales are seriously fairytales! only in storybooks. im glad yet cynical. which is quite contradicting. shld probably just let loose a lil.
just felt like my thoughts are screaming in my mind for the whole night so gotta pen it down. rihs rants; 11:12
20110929
somehow, i wonder what could have been if things weren't this way.
the process was bad, yet, it's all good now. better in all ways i guess.
i'm glad. for i have you in the end.
rihs rants; 01:22
20110926
hi blog. it's been a while. i just need to release it somewhere. and decided on putting it down here as i doubt anyone sees this. hope no one sees this..
anyways, i need to rant about my work crap. things haven't been smooth for this september. the lowest ever i have been. the lowest. i've never hit this low. ever. and i'm feeling really crappy yet i cant and dun wanna lose my composure. don't wanna lose my cool. as i've had good times. really good times that i treasure and hope it'd come again. but this month. is really. sigh.
anyways, business is like that. there are ups and downs. the economy is bad now. we all know it. just look at the colour in the stock market. we will know. and it's just the beginning. just hope things don't get worse.
thing is, i can't blame anyone or anything for this downtime. i can't. there's no one but myself. which makes it even harder. i tried harder this month round. push myself harder. do more follow ups. and it didn't get better. i can only blame it on the month. just the month. crap month.
i'll get it over and done with. time to move on right after this post. not to be affected by my colleagues who are doing fine and claiming they are not. i'll be fine. rihs rants; 17:29
20110808
i always have a line, but it keeps getting blurred recently. rihs rants; 12:07
20110430
life. rihs rants; 10:35
20110212
i keep pushing people away until i have no idea why i'm doing so.
it's so hard to get in now. rihs rants; 16:07
20110102
fuck you 2010.
2011 you better dun be a fucker like 2010. rihs rants; 13:02
i wantttt.
blue-black hair. =D
learn cooking! pastries, pastas-maybe the one at Shermay's? =D new laptop. =D fujitsu? W902.
brown stripe watch.
more fbts!
black handbag. new ring!
sports bag. adidas?
more fred perry-s! :D
shoes collection.
revamp my room!
itouch! polaroid cam + films. =D holga!!
slr cam. new digi cam! panasonic! woot! :D
new spects!!
tan. TRAVEL! GET OUT of SG! up next! BINTAN? BATAM? beachy places! :D hongkong? =D
my own machine. heh. honda.
fun! never ending smiles & laughters! holland apartment. =DDD
