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hi blog. it's been a while. i just need to release it somewhere. and decided on putting it down here as i doubt anyone sees this. hope no one sees this..
anyways, i need to rant about my work crap. things haven't been smooth for this september. the lowest ever i have been. the lowest. i've never hit this low. ever. and i'm feeling really crappy yet i cant and dun wanna lose my composure. don't wanna lose my cool. as i've had good times. really good times that i treasure and hope it'd come again. but this month. is really. sigh.
anyways, business is like that. there are ups and downs. the economy is bad now. we all know it. just look at the colour in the stock market. we will know. and it's just the beginning. just hope things don't get worse.
thing is, i can't blame anyone or anything for this downtime. i can't. there's no one but myself. which makes it even harder. i tried harder this month round. push myself harder. do more follow ups. and it didn't get better. i can only blame it on the month. just the month. crap month.
i'll get it over and done with. time to move on right after this post. not to be affected by my colleagues who are doing fine and claiming they are not. i'll be fine.
rihs rants; 17:29